Hi.

Hello everyone, from a long time I don't post something but the reason is university, unhapply it's taking some of my time and it's also making me tired. The course is making me the same, tired and with some headache. My brother is teasing me with my cousins, they can't let me rest EVEN ONE DAY!!!!!!!! It seems that they are living here and I'm HATING that but no one wants to hear me!!!!!!!!

.

It's just a brief post because my neighbor called us right now to her birthday party and we will go there, maybe we won't be late, but it's to comemorate, so, we will be there. Kisses to you all, dears. Take care.

Doubt.

Hi to you again after all this time. I want to ask if everyone there is O.K. From so long I don't post anything, maybe it's because my time is a little short these days with some homeworks at university and it's worrying me. The course is also near to finish and there are things which I must finish besides I have no imagination to write something.

.

Some presentations and other things are busying my mind but it's not making me completely stressed, just a little, though I know it's not too much near what other people have to do.

.

I'm have been so wrong and mad with everyone these days, I don't know what's happening but I know it goes away fast, I don't want to make more troubles. Today my father was here to call us to dinner with him but I don't know if I'm going to go there. My brother and me hurt the feet, he the left and me the right one. I spent two weeks with something in my foot to don't move it and now my brother is going to stay one month with his foot stopped like mine. These things hadn't better time to happen. Today I took off the thing from my foot but it's still paining a lot and I can't move it well. I really do hope that we get better fast.

I'm afraid.

I'm really worried about the next days, about the next moments. I'm afraid to be far from you. Sometimes I don't understand the things which happen, I would like to know how to deal with big emotions.

.

All this time isn't just killing me, but killing you too, we are one and you know that. Once you asked me how much time I could be waiting for you, and my answer is... ALL THE LIFE.

.

You mean all my life and I won't let the things around us make a trouble in our life. We own to each other and even the distance you are always in my mind, in my heart. I have been loved for you for all this long and I'm glad that God gave me this angel which is YOU.

.

Please, my love, don't worry your mind about what happened or about will happen, because if we must wait we will do although all this pain hurting us inside ourselves. All you did for me is saved inside me and I want to give you the same happiness you give me every second just to think about you. Tears may help us to easy our hearts, prayers can help more than anything but our love is what make us together like this. I won't leave you no matter how much time you take. My arms are and will be ever opened for you.

.

From sometime ago we started to share love, life and everything we could share. If I had to make the time come back again for still waiting you, I'm sure I was going to do, without fear. Oneday you will know the meaning of your name to me, the meaning of your life to me, the one you are for me. I love you and it won't change whatever happens, if God wants.

.

The biggest one there in heaven is watching us and can see everything you are doing, all your prayers, all your love, all your power and wish to change the things between us. He always knows what it's the best for us besides this I'm thanking Him for everything. No matter the time we need or take to have each other in our arms, I'm just yours and I can wait you all the life, with all the pride.

.

Rabie, I love you. Do not care about the things around us, there are too much people wishing us the best, there are too much people praying for our happiness and early or late it's going to happen. I'm not afraid to leave everything to be with you if it will be necessary because you complete me and make me the happiest woman in this life. All this talk isn't just words, but my heart's talk. However, I'm here, just for you.

.

Rabie, I love you.

انا احبك ربيع

.

From your eternal love,

Camila Bernardes

The course.

These pictures were taken some time ago, it was in the beginning of this semester of course. It's my friends, my teacher and me. I know the pictures aren't so good but I will try to show all of them and tell you the names.

It's missing some people: Natalia, Amanda and Isis. Now, these ones from the left to the right: My teacher Juliana, Hevelly, Edjane, Gustavo and Luiz Fernando. Down in the picture: Erick.

My teacher took this picture, as my camera is bad and she didn't know how to use it well you can see the photo a little waved but you can understand and see who is there. Edjane is just as a half person is the picture, following it's Gustavo, me, Luiz and Erick.

Edjane. The light didn't help...

Gustavo and me. He wanted to laugh because the camera didn't want to take the picture. To take this one we had to be closer to make we both in the picture.

This is my teacher Juliana. I really like this semester which she is teaching us. I liked her so much.
By Camila.

The holiday today... ai, it's something really good and which make me calm, although my mind has a lot of thinking these days. Today I want to sleep early to feel rest for tomorrow, I can't miss more any class and I want to give more importance to things that I wasn't giving before. I can't lie that I've been quiet but it's just my reason and I'm sorry, it's not something to be rude with you, but, it's something which own just to myself.

.

I tried to listen to music but even this is stressing me, everything is stressing me, in thruth I think I'm having personal problems with myself, but I don't want to talk about this. My bedroom is a mess, my clothes? oh, I didn't put them in their right places, the only good point is that the things are clean, though I want to clean them again.

.

Talking about University, I'm planning to try to study more, I consider myself as a dumb! My friend had better grades than mine, in all the subjects she got more than me, why that? No, sorry, I want to be better, and if I can't be better I want to be equal - just in the grades, of course - I don't want to be like her, I have my own way and I like myself like this. Hm... I can't lie, I'm so boring today and yesterday I was too, if I could I would quarrell with everyone, I don't want the people talk to me or be near me, everything is disturbing me so much, I have to learn how to control myself when I'm bad.

.

The most terrible part, when I'm angry, depressed or stressed, I EAT!!!!