Nothing makes sense anymore in my life. Sometimes I want, sometimes I don't.

Sometimes I miss my childhood, I miss the people that used to be around me. Who in my age has no friends? Who has a such complicated family?

I wish I had something right to write about but there is nothing. I need money because I want to help Rabie and my mother to zero their credits but I don't know how I will help them, even if I work it will take too much time to help them in this.

Duke.

Today it's probably going to be the last day of Duke here at home.

I tried to find him a new master but no success in this and the first time I saw him I rescued him from a car accident and an iron line in his neck which was suffocating him. I found him in the middle of the street with some injuries and I putted him in a safe place and cutted off his iron colar. I knew that I couldn't have more any dog so I tried to don't get too close to him.

After some days he appeared in front of my house and was playing to my dog. 3 days later I knew that someone have hitted him with a wood and made him without walk or move and as I didn't know he was the whole last night in the rain and cold.

The neighbors helped us with money to his veterinary treatment and we stayed with him untill he get better and start walking again.

After his cure he started to fight with my other dogs and I had to change everything because of his way, and was still looking for another owner but nothing. His barks disturb all the neighborhood and tease the dogs making all of them start a fight and the house become a crazyness.

We tried. Now he is healthy, so healthy, much more than some others dogs you could find. But nothing you can do, like a walk, a special food, a special place, different friends, comands or anything makes him get better or change. He is just getting worse and worse and worse.

If im not wrong we got him between august and october, but I'm not sure of the date. This has been a long time of tries. I really like him as the others but I see that it's better to let him have his life in the way he likes: free. He is about 6 year old dog and even I know all the risks of being alone in the street without a roof over his head I think that he can deal well with the sittuation and I got my decision to set him free in a calm place where many people have dogs and big farms, and where he is going to be farm from cars or things that may hurt him.

My heart is broken to have to take this decision and worse, to have to do this, but I see no other way.

Well, Duke, know that you are also important to me and you are a member of my family too, but if it's better to you I hope God bless you and that He doesn't let me be wrong in this decision, and if you have to find someone to take care of you I hope this person respect and be great with you. I hope we also meet some times later and I hope it doesn't be a goodbye, but only a "see you".

I love you, dear. And I hope that my tears from now be your protection when I'm not near to you. I will miss you, but I'll do it for your good.

Love you, Duke.

Mom.

Goodbye, Rabbit. I love you!

Rabbit was a wonderful and beautiful rabbit. He was near to complete 5 months age but unhapply he was getting sick from some weeks ago and even all the efforts he left us.
Dear, Rabbit, we know that you were young but it didn't make you less important than the others. We loved you and we made the possible to you resist and stay alive but unfortunatly you are gone.
I love you, dear.