LAIKA, God bless you, I will miss you...

You were the best friend, the best dog, an example, always, but I think that the life was unfair with you. I'm sorry if I mistaked to you once or this time, but I never wanted to see you suffering. I tried to make it stays as long as you could stand, but I never wanted to see your pain.
My lovely Laika, I love you so much, your body is not between us anymore but your soul and all the happiness you gave me during all this life I will keep it forever. God bless you and keep your place with the others, also send them a 'hi' and tell them I love and miss them too. I LOVE YOU, LAIKA. Repose in peace.
Born: 20/07/1998
Your born to heaven: 08/11/2009

Bad days

There is again too much time that I don't post something here. Sometimes I really want to but my mind is losing the focus nowadays.

I don't know what I'm feeling, if it's a kind of a beginning of depression or if it's just something I created from my mind and heart, the truth is that I'm not feeling well.

I hope these things get better soon because many things are happening in my wedding. I don't know any more how to know who is wrong and who is right, I just recognize that I'm blamed for many things.

It's after midnight right now and I just arrived from the preparatory course I'm doing in downtown and, in my opinion, since I've started this course many things changed to bad.

I know I mistaked and I have no more rights to ask forgiveness, anyway, I'm really disapointed with myself. I wish the things I say wasn't understood as promises, also because I don't use this word because it's a strong one. But... I understand that when you give your word it's almost the same like a promise, but I think I have to be clearer, I have to say "I will try" to don't hurt the ones I love but if I wore in their places and understood myself like they did I also would be mad with that.

Ai, ai, ai...

After many nice moments I'm dueling with some troubles in my life. The fact of don't have a job anymore is something terrible. I never fought that my job wasn't bad enough that if I could I think I would be back there to keep working because now my pets are depending on the other people here because the salary I'm facing in is something too few.

I don't want that people feel pitty on me, I just want to be also understood and that I'm not trying to find answers or sorries to my faults. I'm big enough to know that I mistaked and big enough to also accept the bad things that come with the wrong things we do.

I wish I had more moments like this, at least they help me a lot to forget about the bad things and make me want to keep fighting for the things I want.

Long time

Hello everyone who read my blog, or, anyone.
From a long time I don't appear to post something here. It's because I've been busy all the time or with work or studying.
Rabie's family has now internet at home but they don't be connected often. It's because they don't know very well how to use the internet, only his sister that is also busy with he business and post graduation. I understand. But even this, Rabie and me are trying to enjoy the days he is at home because he is working too much in the hotel.
I hope we can buy something special that was refused to us, but we don't worry, don't matter how much time it takes to buy it we will wait because sometimes it's better don't try to make the time runs before its own time.
I hope the things don't be mixed during the road, we are trying to make the best.
Just a question: Will we have a surprise today??? Mom will give us the answer.

Trilha sonora indiana de: Caminho das Índias

Estou disponibilizando no meu blog as músicas que ainda não saíram nos CDs que todos procuram. São as músicas indianas que muita gente procura mas nem o google nem o youtube ajudam, então aqui vão os clipes. Aproveitem!

A música de abertura da novela:
* Cantora: Omkara
* Música: Beedi



* Música: Azeem o shaan shahensha
* Do filme: Jodhaa Akbar



* Cantora: Sunidhi Chauhan
* Música: Sajna ve sajna
* Do filme: Chameli



* Cantora: Mangal Pandey
* Música: Main vari vari



* Música: Nagada nagada
* Cantor: Jab We Met



* Música: Mast kalandar
* Cantor Heyy Babyy



* Música: Kajra re
* Cantor: Aishwarya Ray and Ametab Bachan

Allah hafiz, henna... We will miss you

ALYA...







Sunday. December 28, 2008. Oued Fes, Morocco.

This year hadn't gone so well, it prepared some bad surprises to us, things we couldn't imagine happened. First, in august, we lost the great Simohammed (as we used to call, Simo), a beloved and great father, brother, son and husband, because of unexpected health problems he just left us.

Now, the saddest thing happened. Our dear grandmother Alya, henna, also left us. We still don't know what happened yet but we know that she left too many kids, grandkids and many others who loved her missing her. I wish I had known her but unhapply I couldn't. It's hard to want to know someone that you always heard great things of is not here anymore and that you didn't have the chance to tell this person that you loved her without even have really seen her.

She knows she was and is still important to the ones that are still here, and that she taught too much things to the ones around her.

Grandmother, wherever you are, we hope you know that we still loving you and we hope that now you can rest of all the problems you have been throught in this whole life. We wish you are beside Allah right now and he will guide your soul to heaven.

We are sending the sinceres regards to you and Simo that are blessing and protecting us all from there like two blessed angels.

Your grandson is feeling but I'm sure you are listening to him and I don't need to say that he wished he had been with you when everything happened to give you the biggest hug and the sweetest kiss he have ever given.

Rabie and Camila.

SIMOHAMMED...

Goodbye, Marley, God bless you. - Adeus, Marley, Deus te abençoe.

Today he was pretty fine in the morning, sleeping in his house in the street, like he was fine yesterday night when he was having his dinner.

He was always good with everyone, no disturb, no bites, no noise, but I don't know who could be bad enough to take away his life. He didn't deserve that. But... the worse happened. Someone, so bad, so terrible, with no heart, gave him a possion and made him suffer untill die and the only boy who saw him feeling bad didn't tell anyone because thought he would go just sleep even he was looking so hard.

We took too much time to notice that he didn't move and when I went to check without know that someone had done something to him, I saw what I wouldn't like to see, Marley was dead.

Mrs. Eunice is completely sad and angry, sad about the poor Marley and angry with the one who could do that to a great animal that he was. Her, my mother and I wish with all the power that the one who did it suffer the triple he made Marley suffer before dying.

Marley, God bless you, be fine wherever you are, and I know, I'm sure you are in a great place, now, far from all these bad people. We love you, and thank you for the years (about 5) that you spent with us, you were a great one, and sorry if one day we mistaked with you once.

My sincere regards,

Marley...

Team Chicago Brasil e Cristiane

Cristiane, the footballer of the Female Brazilian National Team went to visit the girls of Team Chicago Brasil (where I played once). You can check the video.

Time of final exams.

We are near the final exams at College. I'm studying but not forcing myself the best, I just have to do it today because tomorrow is the Math exam. I'm not feeling difficult in this mater but I must effort myself.

I'm really feeling sleepy and tired to think that in the next 8 days we maybe have a bad new. Anyway, there is not too much I can do.

I'm trying to change my job, I want a stage but in this country, ouch, it's hard to find something. There are feel spaces to stagiaries.

Ah, my "kids" (dogs) are fine.

I DO SUPPORT PETA

After watching a documentary in HBO tv I have changed my mind and thoughts.

I want to ask to everyone reflect about what we are eating or/and buying. The experiments with animals and the tortures made to them is something terrible, it shocks us.

What I'm saying here doesn't come near of what the images can prove. And I adivice you to watch untill the end even knowing you will want to stop the video, but please, see untill the end to know how is done the meat you eat.

PETA is an organization that helps the animals rights. Ingrid Newkirk is the foundator of this organization. If we could do just a little, each one of us, we could just change our daily habits and help to promote the animals rights.

PETA's site:
http://www.peta.org/

Please, change your mind. Change our world. Make your part. Be a saver.

Confused...

I don't know how the things should be.

I don't know if I do something right in this life. Yesterday I was asking myself why do I exist, the only answer I found was that my dogs need me.

This week has been terrible. I just heard "you do everything wrong", "I do not believe you", "you are selfish". Is there something right in me? Do I do something right? I wanted to post some pictures that left me happy sometimes but I don't think I will do.

I'm needing money but I know I can't count on the others even I really do not be asking about this, when I do I just hear complains. I'm thinking about up my work time to maybe get extras because if I tell everyone that I earn U$ 125.00 by month and U$ 50.00 is to support my dogs no one would believe but it's the only job I currently have.

I'm happy that I even have a fixed job, although. And, with this money, I must pay this notebook and give the rest to Rabie because I had to lend from him to buy the things because my boss didn't pay me yet.

I don't know how the people stand me, physicaly and mentaly. I'm fat, ugly, boring, (as they said) selfish (we must point this because we never see ourselves and as they "see" me, actually they sure know more about me than my own self), my brother always say he hates me, but... even all this I will try to look through the good points, my dogs don't care if I'm looking bad, if my hair is ugly, if I'm dressed or nude, if I have money or not or if even sometimes they have to wait a part of day to have me near them because it's the only time I can have to be with them. I love them and I do the same for them, I could give my life to save them.

Just a note: Julia and Marley disappeared last thursday, october, 9. We are trying to find them but untill now there are no results. I will try to post something if we have news about them.

Note 2: Just a regard and hello to Katie, my friend. Even all this time she didn't delete me from her blog and her orkut. See you Katie.

After the exams of university...

I'm resting at home, after a full week. Kika was operated yesterday and had problems because of using contraceptives. Her uthero was 10 times bigger than the normal.



I'm waiting Rabie to come from work.



Ihave nothing to say. :-(

Obs: It's me and Princesa in the picture bellow. Princesa is the newest "kid" in my house. She is still 5 months-old.

The ones you don't know.

Thor.
Marley.
Fred.
Negão.
Pelada.

Saying 'Hi'.

Hi,
From a long time I don't come to post something and it's because the life is being so full and busy. Of course it's because now many things changed. I mean, Rabie is working too much, my mother so. I'm working in my old job as ever and it's normal, but the university is taking too much my time. I don't know if I posted it but one of the dogs from my street (others that I care about too) followed my mother and when she crossed the avenue to go to the bus stop to get in her job he just suffered an accident and unhapply, or happly that he didn't suffer anything more than just break the front left leg he is ok. We took him to the vet and he is with it untill today. I checked now, it happened on May 13.

About the other things... everything is fine and we are planning to make different things. I can't lie, my sleep is taking me and it's driving me crazy but I'm standing. Well, I'm posting from the university because today I had a test in the morning and it's just the other class that we can use the computer. I'm sorry if my English is becoming poor because I'm not using it at all. Rabie is speaking Portuguese and we don't need to speak something else.

I'm thinking about posting the other pictures in my blog but it's being hard because my mother and my brother aren't allowing us to use the computer. They are near to bit if we touch the pc.

If someone who used to read this blog is reading it just send 'hello' as a comment.

See you all.

God bless you my beautiful Lelé. I love you!

Unhapply, after her small baby, Choco, on this last thursday, 08 de maio de 2008, Lelé left. She got sick from the same illness that took away my others, Lelinha, Pretinho, Limão and Choco. Terrible.
Well, after stop walking, seeing and eating her heart just stopped and she left in peace. I'm missing her more than anything, like I'm missing the others but it's ok, it was better than she be suffering and better than order someone to do what is God's work.
I just want to say: Lelé, I love you!

Choco....

I want to ask God to forgive me today again but I think it was the best way.
My lovely and strong Choco became sick and after many quarrells to my father and miss of money many things happened and I lost one of my small ones, one of the babies is now in the arms of God.
Choco, I love you.
God bless you.

Documents

From sometime we aren't posting something but I'm going to tell the reason. It's because we are stucked in the documents. We just receive the salary and it goes with the papers. I'm near to get crazy but to help the people who want to marry with a foreigner I will post the list of the needed documents later. Well, I'm talking about the documents needed in Brazil, I don't know about the other countries or even how it will work in Morocco. I will put the prices too because it's a little hard to be making trips to the International Airport of Rio de Janeiro to go to the Federal Police just to ask "Hey, may you inform me about the needed documents to get the visa prorrogation?" or anything else. It's just a waste of time and money. So, to help the Brazilians and the others who are living in Brazil and need to make the papers to be legal here I'm going to help because even in the internet it's hard to find information.

Birthday of 1 Month.

29 de janeiro de 2008

Trip to Cabo Frio.
We didn't have a honey moon and my family wanted to go to Cabo Frio in the small hotel of my uncle André. We took it as a rest of 2 days but it was raining and cold. Anyway, it was a nice thing.