I don't understand why I'm someone always confused about life. I don't know if I had too many examples but I know that I can make the things different, but it's hard, so hard that I don't even know what I want to my future or who I'm going to be in the future. I just live one day after the other without plan something.

You know, I feel I'm someone terrible, I'm someone that doesn't deserve a thing because my husband works a lot at different times each week and he doesn't even complain about it even that we all know that he is dead inside and so tired that he can't even do the things that would make him happy. He plans and he does for us 4, not only for a couple, but to the whole family and I feel so proud of him that I can't explain how much, but about me, I'm always the opposite.

I wanted to be different, I want to change, but everytime I try I can't go futher, I can't go foward and it kills me. There are many things in my mind which make me so frustated and make me stop, make me give up. I like studying, but why study if I'm not going to work later and support my family?

I wanted to understand what is happening with me.