Monday, November 28, 2005

This week.

It's the life, hard, difficult, strange.

Everywhere, everyday a lot of knowledge is around you. As my father uses to say, what you learn no one can take from you.

There are many intelligent people around you, and if you want to learn a little more you have to ask, you have to inform yourself. Sometimes is difficult to ask something when you are shy, you just don't want to be like a dumb and say "I don't know". Well... maybe it doesn't help with you, but it kills me.

Let me change this topic, because I know you aren't understand anything, and tell you how was
my week. I did tests all the week, I was really tired and sleeping while I sitted somewhere, I couldn't keep my eyes opened. It's wasn't bad because I know it will be the last week and I'm praying to be successed.

This weekend??? I can say it was "nice" because I found my love online, talked to him, but I have to admit it could be better if wasn't my bad way and my anger for my self-pride (I don't know if this word exist but it's what I want to say).

He is always compreensive with me and I'm rude like this, but I don't know what is happening with me, I'm like this nowadays and I can't control myself or control my emotions. I hurt him with this way but I think I need a doctor, I'm getting crazy about simple things and poor of him, he just try to help me and I'm like an animal, maybe I'm anti-social enough to live among humains. I'm not worrying anymore, I have my place in the hell and it will not be late to happen.

I saw nice pictures, someone gave me two egyptian magazines, I will start a new course after the end of the school and maybe I work with my mother in my free days. I'm waiting for my money of my work but untill now my grandmother didn't pay me... I will keep waiting. And the most important, someone can drive nowwwwwwwwwww! :D

I have to apologise myself with him, today maybe I wasn't in my good day, maybe it was because of the test for the university. I don't wanna sleep, my mind is full of stupid things that just could come from me. I must repair this bad way I have or no one will stand sharing a life with me. If one you forgive me my love, I will be happy, but if you can't, don't worry about this, my feelings for you won't change by anyway.

Kisses to everyone.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Pictures of my bedroom.


Some books.

I know its missing the doors. My father will make it when he has time.

Some photos there and my mirror.

My bed (up), my couch (it also becomes a bed).

My bed and its stair.

My big bear. It's old.

My computer table, it would be under my bed but as I changed the things of places now I'm using this just for study, sometimes.



Now the couch became a bed.

The bed and my pillows.

When I want I can use the stairs, nice isn't it?

From futher.

My cortain.
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Liica's photos, she is so lovely.


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She tried to hide herself.





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Playing with her toys in her box-home.

Bela, my aunt's dog. You will see her babies in the next photos.

Lilica disturbing Bela.

Again.

She tried to eat the camera.

" I don't like taking pics, please!"



Between my legs.









Bela's babies, sorry for the dark pics but they need to sleep, so no flash.









Bela's babies.

My cousin Claudia cooking our lunch.



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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

For you, Rabie, my love.

Today I want to say something different, I want to thank someone who is very important to me.

Well, let me start. The things are changed in my life and to better. I feel that all this time was great to me, my heart was broken and I thought that I couldn't learn how to love again or how to believe and feel something good about someone. But the life shows us that everything is possible and the people aren't the same.

Some scars and good moments from our past will never can be erased but maybe just distanced from our present moments. I wish that who maybe made me suffer some pain in the past can be blessed by the love of God, can follow the right road, can live a happy life and always remember that we had great happy and nice moments together, but the life has to continue and there things in our fate which we can't change. I had fogiven you for everything wrong we had done one day and I want you forgive me if I wasn't the best one to make you happy, please, make your family, make your future, love and respect the ones who you will live with. Allah blesses you dear.

Now, my reason is another, I want to say that I'm so happy and everything is going right to me, although manythings had happened this year I think I found myself, I have found my soulmate. My everything is with me nowadays, I don't know how it happened but it did.

My love, it's our time to be happy, it's our time to continue the life and enjoy themost beautiful things we can, spend our time together and be side each other no matter whatever happens. I'm ready to start our life and make our plans come true as we dreamed. I will be waiting for you, waiting for the day you will come, for the time we start our life and share everything.

You took my heart, my mind, all of me. I don't know what happened, I don't know what you did for me, but you changed all what I was before, you made me want to live again and more million years just to beside you and forget the things which made me sad and forget my problems. You know everything about me and we know the time to meet is being soon. Know that I love you and I'm always with you.

To my love, Rabie, from the one who loves you,

Camila Bernardes

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

A nice day in the beach.

Today mom, nico and me went to the beach so early and it was almost empty when we arrived. The water was so cold but was great, we enjoined and I took some pics.
You will see all the pictures but I don't want to write anything discribing the image, just check it out.

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