Lar, doce lar.

Não sei porque certos países são tão diferentes do nosso, se somos os errados ou se são eles, se não existe errado ou certo quando se trata de cultura. Acho que cada um é cada um e devemos que respeitar seus espaços como eles devem respeitar o nosso. É por isso que eu estava comentando, já que um dia queremos viajar para algum lugar devemos respeitar a cultura alheia e andar "dentro dos padrões" deles até que voltemos à nossa terra, ao nosso lar. Nada melhor que nossa casa. Como dizemos em inglês: "Home, sweet home!"

Zinedine Zidane Family pictures

Título: Carta anónima
Artista: Andy & Lucas
Disco: Andy & Lucas

Iré directo al grano desde el empezar
no intentare cambiar las cosas como están
prefiero que guardemos nuestra amistad
no te diré mi nombre por el qué dirán, qué dirán

Adivina adivinanza quien te escribe esta carta
es un niño que no juega mientras sufre por tu alma,
es un cuerpo que no anda si no escucha tus palabras,
es el aire del mar

soy tu caja de secretos tu silencio y tu pregunta,
soy la luna en la escondes tu batallas mas ocultas,
si tú eres el viaje que nunca podré llevar, llevar.

Te compraría el sol, si estuviera la venta
te dejaría una nube para que lo escondieras
haría un hechizo pa’ que tu alma quisiera
mi corazón.

yo sé que mi silencio ahora es tu duda,
yo se que tu duda ahora es mi amargura,
no intentes preguntarte quien te escribe esta carta,
Mejor dejarlo así.

Mi único silencio es morir por ti
ya sé que en tus sospechas tienes que decidir
quien es el culpable de esta inspiración
pero deja que el tiempo rompa mi temor, mi temor

Adivina adivinanza quien te escribe esta carta
es un niño que no juega mientras sufre por tu alma,
es un cuerpo que no anda si no escucha tus palabras,
es el aire del mar

soy tu caja de secretos tu silencio y tu pregunta,
soy la luna en la escondes tu batallas mas ocultas,
si tú eres el viaje que nunca podré llevar, llevar.

Te compraría el sol, si estuviera la venta
te dejaría una nube para que lo escondieras
haría un hechizo pa’ que tu alma quisiera
mi corazón.

yo sé que mi silencio ahora es tu duda,
yo se que tu duda ahora es mi amargura,
no intentes preguntarte quien te escribe esta carta,
Mejor dejarlo así.

Te compraría el sol, si estuviera la venta
te dejaría una nube para que lo escondieras
haría un hechizo pa’ que tu alma quisiera
mi corazón.

yo sé que mi silencio ahora es tu duda,
yo se que tu duda ahora es mi amargura,
no intentes preguntarte quien te escribe esta carta,
Mejor dejarlo así.

Te compraría el sol, si estuviera la venta
te dejaría una nube para que lo escondieras
haría un hechizo pa’ que tu alma quisiera
mi corazón.

yo sé que mi silencio ahora es tu duda,
yo se que tu duda ahora es mi amargura,
no intentes preguntarte quien te escribe esta carta,
Mejor dejarlo así.

Te compraría el sol, si estuviera la venta
te dejaría una nube para que lo escondieras
haría un hechizo pa’ que tu alma quisiera
mi corazón.

yo sé que mi silencio ahora es tu duda,
yo se que tu duda ahora es mi amargura,
no intentes preguntarte quien te escribe esta carta,
Mejor dejarlo así.

I'm getting angry with my aunt, I hate her way to say the things behind the others and now it's about me but I could hear well.

I don't think she should blame me for something I'm not responsable. If I were a genius or maybe a witch to know things and later make them wanting to make something bad to the others she should do.

Why am I blamed if I warned her before and she made as she hadn't listened to me. Now it's not her who is paying the price, but her dogs. I'm almost sure she is far to have a heart or feelings and talk something behind me is one of the things I don't accept but I'm trying to don't make problems to her and shut up because if I get stressed I will say things she won't like to listen.

She should pay more attention about what she says or what she thinks... She doesn't know that she is only turning the things to the difficult side. God bless her and make she better, and make me be calm and quiet though I listen to these things.

I'm missing him.

I know I'm having somedays to talk to him but I feel these few times we have together aren't being enough. It's hard to express or tell him I miss him all the time, everyday, every passed second.

I just imagine him near me and when I see or read that people are getting married or are getting engaged and it's hurting me deep inside my heart, cutting and finishing me step by step and I'm near to get crazy and throw everything away.

I really don't find words sometimes to say I'm here, to say I love him, to say I miss him and make him believe is hard when I don't see smiles, when I don't find expressions of good feelings or sometimes I just think I should leave those moments to see if when I back the things back to the normal. I know we can't be fine everyday but I will be always trying to get a smile from him though I'm not being really successful in this. I try my best but my tries are being taken by the wind and going away throw the window.

I don't know if I'm right or wrong in my way or in my all life. All I know is just that I'm not feeling useful to the one I love. I wanted to call him now, to cry on his shoulders and hold him as it was the last time I was near him, feeling him. I wanted to feel his breath, his heart and listen his words in my ears, so close, like if he was saying I'm the only one in his life. I know I am, but I wanted to hear this from his mouth and kiss him.

I don't know anymore how to make him understand that I love him and need him here or wherever it be, but with me! I need you, Rabie!

I'm:

• Hating some days
• Sad
• Mad
• Angry with myself and with the hours
• Tired of don't have the one I want near me
• Tired of be waiting an answer to make me happy and get disappointed all the time because this answer never comes
• Angry to don't have money to go where I should go to be near the one I love
• Feeling bad to decide things that can change my life
• HATING MYSELF SOMETIMES!
• Mad at people that sometimes cut my happiness

Plains to carnaval, I have none. In truth all I'm doing today is listen to music after 19:30 h in Brazil time.
There are some crazy songs or people with strange voices but I will give you a list of some songs I think nice to you just listen in Real Player program or in another one that plays rm and ram files:

Osane - raje3 yet3amar lubnan
http://variety.salmiya.net/songs/O-Sane/ram/O-Sane5.ram
Jebah - nech darbarani
http://moroccan.salmiya.net/songs/jebah/ram/jebah10.ram
Cheba Siham - ma3ajbak hal
http://moroccan.salmiya.net/songs/chaba-siham/ram/chaba-siham4.ram
Mohamed el sh3arkh
http://egyptian.salmiya.net/songs/Mohamed-ElSh3ar/ram/Mohamed-ElSh3ar5.ram

It's Carnaval!

Just tired of doing nothing and with my mind full about which decision to take this week. I'm not planning to be worried before the things happen but I don't know why this time I'm like this.

Well, this week, I think starting from today, if I'm not wrong, it's carnaval in all Brazil. I'm not going to enjoy or go out with my family. I mean, untill now nothing we decided about this. I think just Matheus is happy with this because he loves this season and about me, I love the holiday we have.

Intreview in the company marked to thursday at 10:00h. I'm going to see what will happen then.

I'm wondering if I'm being so boring like it seems.

My visitors counter is saying there is no one visiting me. It's worring me and though I changed the layout and my way to post is still the same it seems strange to have no visitors.

Today I was learning how to start programing but someone called me and then I opened. It's someone from an American company that works with softwares and sistems of computers, where I also have a friend working there, saying they would like to receive me there to work as secretarian, maybe it's something good and tomorrow I will give them the answer if I will want to go there for the intreview or not.

Maybe it's a good oportunity. I'm going to try, I think.

My first day at the new university

I really thought it would be boring and something really different to me but believe me, I liked to be studying. There is a bad point: THERE IS ONLY MEN IN MY CLASS! I was the third one to arrive in the room and after that only men appeared and I was getting scared thinking "how much men more will arrive here and let me as the only girl?" but to my happiness some girls arrived, in total we are about 5 women and 35 men... a big number, I think.

Taking all of this off of the story I liked the class and the crazy teacher we have. I think he will be nice with us. Resuming, my first day was very good. Alhamidulillah.

Better than this one, just two like it.

Pretinho eating alone

Branquinha with cold.
Guguinha looking.
Iena eating his carpet. Poor of him if he thinks I'm going to give him another one to put in his house.
Limão is really so wonderful inside the house.
Scared.

Iena doesn't keep quiet when I need it.
Finally he understood the camera doesn't bit him.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GRANDMA!!!!

Today is my grandma's birthday, I'm so happy to spend more one year with her. And when I went to talk to her today morning some minutes ago she was cleaning the street with my grandpa and my aunt. I asked her if even in the birthday she won't rest a little, she said she has to clean!

About the babies, some are looking like fine and others with a strong cold, but Pretinho, the black one, after convulsions all the day yesterday is being a little better. As he is feeling well but is just sleepy a little because of the calmers he is taking he went to eat his food and eat the food with milk I make to them eat everyday in the morning. He ate alone in another plate because if I left him eating with the others they would finish all before Pretinho come close.

After drink too much water and eat a lot he is resting a little here in the living room with me, he seems to be feeling really a little better.

I thank everyone who prayed for the babies and helped me with good wishes. I want to thank God too, to be listening to me when I need.

My little babies, now, without Lelinha.

This one is Guguinha, he was taking some sun and I decided to photografe him.
Very tired.
Laika waking up to take a pic.

Gordo didn't want to move and I think he was saying something like "go away! can't you see I'm sleeping?!".
Limão coming out of his room.
Iena, Branquinha and Limão (starting from the up left to right).
I think he thinks he is a model. Can you see his belly? It's all food, as it's full there is no way to walk well, so he tries to rest. And, to who noticed, this golden one appearing without I ask in the camera is Junior, he wanted to appear too.
From when Guguinha came to our house he didn't get so bigger, just really a little, but I think it's normal, he is here only for one month, he is about 3 months old nowadays.

He wanted privacity to go to the toilet but I got him in the moment of his number 1 after waking up.
Limão.
Pretinho is slow these days, but we know, as they are all sick they got thinner and slower. I hope it gets better and I hope to see they fine again.
See how much healthy he is! His tongue is really pink as should be and I thank God that he didn't be sick as the little babies.
If you saw Branquinha pics ago and look at her now in this pic don't think she is only a skeleton, she was very very sick and throwing blood out too. Now she much better than before and I want to see her fat as before.

La Blanc, as we call her sometimes.
Guguinha in the sun.
Gordurinha hehehe.
If you look well you will see Branquinha, Gordo and Limão disturbing the poor Junior who only wanted to rest a little.
Branquinha only in skin and bones.

I think now you can see well Limão and Gordo.
Pretinho trying to go away.
Guguinha.
Iena. I'm worried about him. Don't think he sleeping, no. He is closing his eyes because he is getting a little blind but he is still watching us well. I hope he keep trying to have forces to stop this virus inside himself.
Now he opened his eyes.

Gordo bitting the little Limão.
Branquinha tired.
Gordo finishing with *Fiu. It was the Fiu of Laika and Junior, but when the babies were some months younger my mother gave them the Fiu and they ate Fiu's noise, feet, hand and ass. Now it doesn't make noise anymore but Gordo is wanting to eat the rest, I think.
Pretinho.
He gave up and left the Fiu.

Branquinha wanting to sleep. "No more pics" she said.
Magro (he is Iena, but we call him like this too).
Pretinho.
Guguinha running from the invisible.
Alemão again!

*Fiu: It's a name we gave to the little Pooh, a toy of plastic that we give to pets play, which make noises if we press it. It's not the real name in Portuguese or in Brazil, it's just a name we gave to this toy to they understand what we are talking about, so if we ask "where is fiu?" they go to take it.

NOTE: THE CAPTIONS OF EACH PICTURE ARE THE ONES BELOW.

I want to thank Rabie and Tim who read my blog and gave me some power with the comments. I really want to thank for that. I know life has to continue and I will keep all the moments I had with her, God is blessing her.

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Before anything I want to thank God for everything He is doing for me and for my dogs. He is listening to my prayers and I will try my best to make my best to Him. My grandmother is helping me about buy the medication my pets need to be better. Iena is seeming to start to be blind but with this injection they are taking maybe he recupairs his vision. It's wonderful to think the things can get better again, and if the things don't, I will keep loving them as I do now, maybe more than ever.
About yesterday I was in a dinner with my family though I didn't think it would be nice it was o.k. there.

THANK YOU, GOD!