I don't know how the things should be.
I don't know if I do something right in this life. Yesterday I was asking myself why do I exist, the only answer I found was that my dogs need me.
This week has been terrible. I just heard "you do everything wrong", "I do not believe you", "you are selfish". Is there something right in me? Do I do something right? I wanted to post some pictures that left me happy sometimes but I don't think I will do.
I'm needing money but I know I can't count on the others even I really do not be asking about this, when I do I just hear complains. I'm thinking about up my work time to maybe get extras because if I tell everyone that I earn U$ 125.00 by month and U$ 50.00 is to support my dogs no one would believe but it's the only job I currently have.
I'm happy that I even have a fixed job, although. And, with this money, I must pay this notebook and give the rest to Rabie because I had to lend from him to buy the things because my boss didn't pay me yet.
I don't know how the people stand me, physicaly and mentaly. I'm fat, ugly, boring, (as they said) selfish (we must point this because we never see ourselves and as they "see" me, actually they sure know more about me than my own self), my brother always say he hates me, but... even all this I will try to look through the good points, my dogs don't care if I'm looking bad, if my hair is ugly, if I'm dressed or nude, if I have money or not or if even sometimes they have to wait a part of day to have me near them because it's the only time I can have to be with them. I love them and I do the same for them, I could give my life to save them.
Just a note: Julia and Marley disappeared last thursday, october, 9. We are trying to find them but untill now there are no results. I will try to post something if we have news about them.
Note 2: Just a regard and hello to Katie, my friend. Even all this time she didn't delete me from her blog and her orkut. See you Katie.
1 comment:
I miss you Camila. I do. I think we are all self. I can say that I am. I like to think of myself as too busy to do things. Too busy to call. Too busy to chat. Too busy to email. Too busy to stay in touch. The truth is though, half the time I am too busy and half the time I am too lazy. But really, even in my distance and silence I am still thinking about you and praying for you. You are sweet and I love having your friendship. I won't ever forget you. And even if we lose tract of each other I will never stop calling you my friend. Take care dear.
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