The first job I got and the first one I left

I started my first job on wednesday 22 and left it today on sunday. I wasn't standing anymore, it wasn't a wished thing from my heart, I was doing that because of the people I love and make part of me. But, I gave up.
There are many things I wanted to write now but I will let this to another time.

My first white hair!

People, I'm really happy for today, maybe I regret this someday of my life but it's wonderful now. I was in the lake with my father and his friends when the woman said "wait, let me take something from your hair..." and tchan! I saw: my first white hair!!!!!!! Hahahahahaha! It's nice to have them on my 18 years old when my aunt had them on hers 15.

On wednesday I will start my job, I hope I like it and be successful to help my family.

I woke up happy today and did many things and also at 8h30 I was playing football alone and training shoots. I just want to say I'm very fine and the things are going well too. Lelé's baby are playing with me now and they are trying to walk but it's still hard for them.

Rabie, I left the song in my multiply, it's in the same file you putted the berber song there, now you can listen. Love you.

Nice night today...

I'm alone here in my living room, my brother is taking his shower and my mother isn't at home. I have no one to talk so I decided posting to feel better because I'm feeling stressed.

I'm watching TV and listening about Aljazeera TV with new offices, one in Caracas, Venezuela and another in Buenos Aires, Argentine. It's good in my opinion.

And, talking about Buenos Aires, nmy aunt said she is going there next year to make a course and it's something really good to hear when I feel that my trial about a job was failed and I have no money to be out of this country. I wanted to travel some where or just have some money to do something for me and travel to another state here but not be stucked at home as ever. I know I have to work hard to get what I want but there are other things worring me like this Christmas, that I won't have it this year and personally, it's one of the things I like most as New Year's Eve.

I really wanted to send everyone to hell but I know no one is guilt for my own problems. It would bea question of "say to feel better", not to really mean that. In truth, from my heart, I want to wish you a really blessed night today.

Zinedine Zidane - the best

Check this site and tell me if you wouldn't like to have a father or a husband like him.

http://www.zidane.com.over-blog.com/

Some people are agaisnt him but I'm pro him. He is respectable, loves his family and even his angry way sometimes he didn't do if there wasn't a good reason. In football or in life Zinedine is the best.

I'm with you, Zizou!

They are getting big.

Cold weather

This week was very cold. About 16°C everyday everywhere around here.

I know I didn't post anything from sometime ago but I have been busy with the little pets and working with my grandmother. I also have been busy with other things but I won't talk about this right now, I'll wait everything be really right to tell it later.

Today is a nice day, it's my cousin Gisele's birthday. She is my doctor and cousin and I like her so much but I won't post pictures of her here because I haven't one.

Now, forgive me, but it's lunch time and after that, even raining a lot like it's now, I'll have to go to work with my grandmother because she asked me help today. I'm full of headache but I'll try to dothe possible with her untill Rabie comes here and also because I'm freezing with this weather.

I've been only working and working these days to busy my mind. Nothing is making me feel really satisfied. Tomorrow I'll probably go to Madureira with my grandmother to help her to buy things she's needing. I don't know how to walk there but I'll go. I'm still the bad one I always was and it's torturing me inside though I feel inside my heart and mind the things are getting better and fixed. I was only needing some days to organize the things.

Death

Today is a sad day. I lost him today in the morning 8h30. The veterinarians called us saying he didn't resist. I'm feeling finished. We will always love you Macaquinho. God bless you.

Continuo muito doente, esse resfriado não quer me deixar de forma alguma. Estamos tendo sempre muitas coisas para fazer em casa mas mesmo assim a minha mente continua ligada me fazendo refletir sobre o que aconteceu. Tudo está meio confuso, estranho. Sem amigos para dividir as coisas, sem vontade de falar ou se quer mencionar algo referente à minha vida.

Um tempo? Bem que às vezes as pessoas se perguntam e/ou ficam nervosas e deprimidas quando isso acontece. Difícil é encarar os fatos e entender que está sendo deixada (o) de lado por alguma coisa que eu pessoalmente julgaria "banal" mas já qie na vida tudo se conquista com paciência e empenho vamos esperar para ver o que acontece. Não tenho motivos para olhar somente os pontos negativo de toda a história pois tudo se baseia em "fatos"! Também errei bastante e aí está o preço. Não posso negar que queria ter alguém para quem contar essas coisas, agora, e mesmo tendo amigos e vontade de contar não sei se o faria.

Mais paciência, tempo e esperança é tudo que me resta porque o resto já foi tirado de mim. Espero que a palavra "tempo" seja usada novamente só em casos em que não represente dor a uma pessoa.