Today I was at my grandmother's house working and she told me things to let me more worried about my thoughts and about the things that a running through my mind. She said that yesterday she heard my aunt and uncle quarrelling and my uncle said "if you want to stay with me it will be on my way". And she also talked about her with my grandfather, that she is also making him "straight" because she isn't standing his way.

I started to think and to compare myself asking if I'm like my aunt and grandpa, or just like my grandma, or just like my mother.

There are more things I wrote here but just deleted because it's being something that's hurting me but with time I will feel fine and better to explain.